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Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.93


I didn’t know much about psychoanalysis, but I was pretty sure that it didn’t work unless the subject was relatively honest. Sure, I could tell the truth—if I wanted to spend the rest of my life in a padded cell.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.96


I don’t think I can live through seeing you try harder. I’ve never seen anyone trying so hard. It hurts to watch.
Charlie Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.97


I want you to be happy—no, not even that much. I just want you not to be miserable.
Charlie Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.97


The downside was that I had free time on my hands, and I tried to avoid free time at all costs.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.98


The scene kept cutting between the horrified face of the heroine, and the dead, emotionless face of her pursuer, back and forth as it closed the distance. And I realized which one resembled me the most.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.106


I sat down on the bench outside the theater door and tried very hard not to think of the irony. But it was ironic, all things considered, that, in the end, I would wind up as a zombie. I hadn’t seen that one coming.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.106



It was depressing to realize that I wasn’t the heroine anymore, that my story was over.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.106


It was inevitable that I would have nightmares, but they wouldn’t be about zombies.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.107


I saw no reason for fear. I couldn’t imagine anything in the world that there was left to be afraid of, not physically at least. One of the few advantages of losing everything.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.11


Are you crazy? Are you suicidal?
Jessica Stanley, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.110



I wasn’t suicidal. Even in the beginning, when death unquestionably would have been a relief, I didn’t consider it. I owed too much to Charlie. I felt too responsible for Renee. I had to think of them. And I’d made a promise not to do anything stupid or reckless. For all those reasons, I was still breathing.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.110


Option one: I was crazy. That was the layman’s term for people who heard voices in their heads. Possible.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.112



I was not allowed to think of him. That was something I tried to be very strict about. Of course I slipped; I was only human. But I was getting better, and so the pain was something I could avoid for days at a time now. The tradeoff was the never-ending numbness. Between pain and nothing, I’d chosen nothing.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.113


The anger was what I wanted to hearfalse, fabricated evidence that he cared, a dubious gift from my subconscious.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.113



You are so odd, Bella Swan. I feel like I don’t know who you are.
Jessica Stanley, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.115



Instead of shying away from the memories, I’d walked forward and greeted them. I’d heard his voice, so clearly, in my head. That was going to cost me, I was sure of it. Especially if I couldn’t reclaim the haze to protect myself. I felt too alert, and that frightened me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.116



As much as I struggled not to think of him, I did not struggle to forget. I worried—late in the night, when the exhaustion of sleep deprivation broke down my defenses—that it was all slipping away. That my mind was a sieve, and I would someday not be able to remember the precise color of his eyes, the feel of his cool skin, or the texture of his voice. I could not think of them, but I must remember them. Because there was just one thing that I had to believe to be able to live—I had to know that he existed. That was all. Everything else I could endure. So long as he existed.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.116



Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget; it was a hard line to walk.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.117



It didn’t feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that I’d grown strong enough to bear it.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.118


For the first time in a long time, I didn’t know what to expect in the morning.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.119



I wished I could feel numb again, but I couldn’t remember how I’d managed it before.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.123


I wondered how long this could last. Maybe someday, years from now—if the pain would just decrease to the point where I could bear it—I would be able to look back on those few short months that would always be the best of my life. And, if it were possible that the pain would ever soften enough to allow me to do that, I was sure that I would feel grateful for as much time as he’d given me. More than I’d asked for, more than I’d deserved. Maybe someday I’d be able to see it that way.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.124


As if he’d never existed? That was insanity. It was a promise that he could never keep, a promise that was broken as soon as he’d made it.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.125


Where was the logic in sticking to an agreement that had already been violated by the other party?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.125


Reckless in Forks—now there was a hopeless proposition.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.125


To be reckless in Forks would take a lot of creativity—maybe more than I had. But I wished I could find some way… I might feel better if I weren’t holding fast, all alone, to a broken pact.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.125


I wanted to be stupid and reckless, and I wanted to break promises. Why stop at one?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.127


I needed to reign in the enthusiasm before I gave him the wrong idea—it was just that it had been a long time since I’d felt so light and buoyant. The rarity of the feeling made it more difficult to manage.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.135



Only a teenage boy would agree to this: deceiving both our parents while repairing dangerous vehicles using money meant for my college education.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.136

I was laughing, actually laughing, and there wasn’t even anyone watching. I felt so weightless that I laughed again, just make the feeling last longer.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.141


Jacob was simply a perpetually happy person, and he carried that happiness with him like an aura, sharing it with whoever was near him. Like an earthbound sun, whenever someone was within his gravitational pull, Jacob warmed them. It was natural, a part of who he was. No wonder I was so eager to see him.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.145


It’s not my fault you’re a freak.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.147


I remembered the first day I’d come to Forks High School—how desperately I’d wished that I could turn gray, fade into the wet concrete of the sidewalk like an oversized chameleon. It seemed I was getting that wish answered, a year late.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.152


I wasn’t sure what the hell I was doing here. Was I trying to push myself back into the zombie stupor? Had I turned masochistic—developed a taste for torture?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.159



Unattainable and impossible, uncaring and distracted… but he was out there, somewhere. I had to believe that.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.160


But it wouldnt it  be worse if there were no change?   If the the couches sat just as I'd last seen them, the paintings on the walls - worse still, the piano on its low platform?  It would be second only to the house disappearing all together, to see that there was no physical possession that tied them in anyway.  That everything remained, untouched and forgotten, behind them.
Just like me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.162


Maybe I was developing a new kind of sickness, another addiction, like the numbness before.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.162


I’d come full circle, and now everything felt like an echoan empty echo, devoid of the interest it used to have.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.167


Sometimes you’re a little strange, Bella. Do you know that?
Jacob Black, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.172


It was strange for me, being this close—emotionally rather than physically, though the physical was strange for me, too—to another human being. It wasn’t my usual style. I didn’t normally relate to people so easily, on such a basic level. Not human beings.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.179



Racing down the road like that had been amazing. The feel of the wind in my face, the speed and the freedom… it reminded me of a past life, flying through the thick forest without a road, piggyback while he ran—I stopped thinking right there, letting the memory break off in the sudden agony.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.190


Did you know, you’re sort of beautiful?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.192


The hole came back, the way it always did when I was away from Jacob, but it didn’t throb so badly around the edges. I was already planning ahead, looking forward to more delusions,  and that was a distraction.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.193


The nightmare, too, had lost a little of its potency.  I was horrified by the nothingness , as always, but i was also strangely impatient as I waited for the moment that would send me screaming into consciousness. I knew the nightmare had to end.
 Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.193


I could think of one place where that might hold true.  One place that would always belong to him and no one else.  A magic place, full of light.  The beautiful meadow I'd seen only once in my life, lit by sunshine and the sparkle of his skin.
 Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.195




This idea had a huge potential for backfiring -  it might be dangerously painful.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.195


I was like a lost moon—my planet destroyed in some cataclysmic, disaster-movie scenario of desolation—that continued, nevertheless, to circle in a tight little orbit around the empty space left behind, ignoring the laws of gravity.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.201
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 Why are you so masochistic?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.32


You try very hard to make up for something that was never your fault. What I mean is, it’s not like you asked for this. You didn’t choose this kind of life, and yet you have to work so hard to be good.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.35


Like everything in life, I just had to decide what to do with what I was given.
Carlisle Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.35


So I didn’t agree with my father’s particular brand of faith. But never, in the nearly four hundred years now since I was born, have I ever seen anything to make me doubt whether God exists in some form or the other. Not even the reflection in the mirror.
Carlisle Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.36


I couldn’t imagine anyone, deity included, who wouldn’t be impressed by Carlisle. Besides, the only kind of heaven I could appreciate would have to include Edward.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.37


I look at my… son. His strength, his goodness, the brightness that shines out of him—and it only fuels that hope, that faith, more than ever. How could there not be more for one such as Edward?
Carlisle Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.37


If you believed as he did. Could you take away his soul?
Carlisle Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.37



If he’d asked me whether I would risk my soul for Edward, the reply would be obvious. But would I risk Edward’s soul? I pursed my lips unhappily. That wasn’t a fair exchange.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.38


I’d rather die than be with anyone but you.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.45


He smiled my favorite crooked smile, and then he disappeared into the darkness.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.46


His voice was sad. He was wallowing.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.47



It’s beautiful, Edward. You couldn’t have given me anything I would love more. I can’t believe it.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.49



Charlie wasn’t exactly aware that Edward frequently stayed over. In fact, he would have a stroke if that fact were brought to his attention. But I didn’t feel too guilty for deceiving him It wasn’t as if we were up to anything he wouldn’t want me to be up to. Edward and his rules…
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.49



You’re greedy tonight.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.51



You’re overestimating my self-control.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.52


Which is tempting you more, my blood or my body?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.52



I was halfway asleep, maybe more, when I realized what his kiss had reminded me of: last spring, when he’d had to leave me to throw James off my trail, Edward had kissed me goodbye, not knowing when—or if—we would see each other again. This kiss had the same almost painful edge for some reason I couldn’t imagine.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.52


There was something buried in his eyes that I couldn’t be sure of—and it scared me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.53


The guilt made my head bow and my shoulders slump. I’d run them out of their home, just like Rosalie and Emmett. I was a plague.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.55



I always want you.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.56


Surely Edward could wait a year. What was a year to an immortal? It didn’t even seem like that much to me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.57



So much had changed, and so abruptly. It made me feel a little bit dizzy, like I was standing on an edge, a precipice somewhere much too high.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.60



Change was coming. I could feel it. It wasn’t a pleasant prospect, not when life was perfect the way it was.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.60


Maybe I just wasn’t in the mood for normal human behavior today.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.64



Edward looked just as beautiful as he did in real life, staring at me out of the picture with the warm eyes I’d missed for the past few days. It was almost uncanny that anyone could look so… so… beyond description. No thousand words could equal this picture.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.65



The contrast between the two of us was painful. He looked like a god. I looked very average, even for a human, almost shamefully plain.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.65


Edward still hadn’t come over. I didn’t want to admit that he was the reason I’d stayed up so late, but of course he was. I tried to remember the last time he’d stayed away like this, without an excuse, a phone call… He never had.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.66


He smiled my favorite crooked smile, but it was wrong. It didn’t reach his eyes.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.67

I shook my head and took a deep breath, trying to locate some courage.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.67


I didn't answer.  I couldn't think of a way to protest, but I instatly knew that I wanted to.  I didnt like this.  This is bad,  this is very bad..."
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.67


BeWhere you are is the right place for me.
You’re the very best part of my life.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.69



I don’t care! You can have my soul. I don’t want it without you—it’s yours already!
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.69



Bella, I don’t want you to come with me.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.69



You… don’t… want me?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.69


Of course, I’ll always love you… in a way. But what happened the other night made me realize that it’s time for a change. Because I’m… tired of pretending to be something I’m not, Bella. I am not human
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.70

You’re not good for me, Bella.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.70

I promise that this will be the last time you’ll see me. I won’t come back. I won’t put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I’d never existed.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.71

Don’t worry. You’re human—your memory is no more than a sieve. Time heals all wounds for your kind.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.71

Well, I won’t forget. But my kind… we’re very easily distracted.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.72

With shaky legs, ignoring the fact that my action was useless, I followed him into the forest. The evidence of his path had disappeared instantly. There were no footprints, the leaves were still again, but I walked forward without thinking. I could not do anything else. I had to keep moving. If I stopped looking for him, it was over.
Love, life, meaning… over.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.73


Not tonight.  tonight the sky was utterly black.  Perhaps  there was no moon tonight- a lunar eclipse, a new moon. A new moon.  I shivered, though I wasn't cold.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.73


Have you been hurt?
Sam Uley, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.75


The waves of pain that had only lapped at me before now reared high up and washed over my head, pulling me under. I did not resurface.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.84

blackbutterfly
 



Well, Gran, you might have noticed that my boyfriend glitters.
It’s just something he does in the sun. Don’t worry about it…
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.4
  
Edward stood beside me, casting no reflection, excruciatingly lovely and forever seventeen.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.6
I couldn’t feel anything but despair until I pulled into the familiar parking lot behind Forks High School and spotted Edward leaning motionlessly against his polished silver Volvo, 
like a marble tribute to some forgotten pagan god of beauty.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.7
Despair momentarily vanished; wonder took its place. Even after half a year with him,
I still couldn’t believe that I deserved this degree of good fortune.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.7
You’re only a senior once. Might as well document the experience.
Alice Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.9
How many times have you been a senior?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.9
But Edward was dead set against any future that changed me. Any future that made me like him—that made me immortal, too. An impasse, he called it.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.10
What was so great about mortality? Being a vampire didn’t look like such a terrible thing—not the way the Cullens did it, anyway.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.10
He, for some unfathomable reason, wanted to be with me. Anything he gave me on top of that just threw us more out of balance.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.13


Sometimes it bothered Edward how very comfortable I was with being close to him. He thought he was hazardous to my health—an opinion I rejected vehemently whenever he voiced it.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.14
I was hardly ever bad-tempered with Edward, and my tone
made him press his lips together to keep from smiling.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.15


As he intended, no doubt, I forgot all about my worries, 
and concentrated on remembering how to inhale and exhale.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.16
You know, I’ve never had much patience with Romeo.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.17
The movie eventually captured my interest, thanks in large part to Edward whispering Romeo’s lines in my ear—his irresistible, velvet voice made the actor’s voice 
sound weak and coarse by comparison.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.17
Well, I wasn’t going to live without you. But I wasn’t sure how to do it—I knew Emmett and Jasper would never help… so I was thinking maybe I would go to Italy and do something to provoke the Volturi.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.19
No matter what might ever happen to me, you are not allowed to hurt yourself!
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.20


I’ll never put you in danger again, so it’s a moot point.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.20


Put me in danger! I thought we’d established that all the bad luck is my fault?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.20

Edward had drawn many careful lines for our physical relationship, with the intent being to keep me alive. Though I respected the need for maintaining a safe distance between my skin and his razor-sharp, venom-coated teeth, I tended to forget about trivial things like that when he was kissing me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.16
If I develop this film, will you show up in the picture?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.25
blackbutterfly



I am still feeling like I am trapped in Forks with Bella waiting for that stupid vampire to reappear somewhere from thick nothingness and void unknown.  :_(  


Haven't slept well since i started reading around 11pm coz I couldn't leave Bella alone. :(  Wahhh I just found myself empathizing with Bella too much I guess because her story in some ways is similar to mine.   Edward left so traceless.



 "it would be as if i've never existed... "
Men ...  whatever they're made of...they share a common atom



"Don’t worry. You’re human—your memory is no more than a sieve. 
Time heals all wounds for your kind. "
Now how fair is that? " :_(

Throughout the chapters i was waiting for him to show up again for Bella and up to the last chapter i stopped, wahhh....

Umm, but are about to on that page I paused.  Lol's but why would it take a grl jumping off the cliff  to a deathly chilling lake before a guy, vampire or human should realize he took a wrong path being without the one he loves?

Book 1, i thought edwards a masochistic lion indeed
but
Book 2 ummm He's such a sadistic lion! hahaha

ooops okay we'll should i say both?
While he wndered away entertaining himself with all possible distractions, he was dying too...self-denial is a very painful wall. ...

Anyway I have like 6 chapters more.

I'm in love! Hayzzzzzzzzzzz
blackbutterfly
Halfway through, I couldn't sleep till the last page so i was caught up on it as though Edward indeed has dazzled me. I love beautiful scenes  which i know i'll always refer back through the years and will always be part of our waking reality anyhow. 


 A collection of Quotes 


I didn't  want to feel what i knew I would feel when I lookded at his too perfect face. 
 ~~~~
 I am tired of staying away from you Bella.
~~~~~~
  I decided as long as I am going to hell, I might as well do it thoroughly. 
~~~~~ 
If you're smart, you'll avoid me
What if I'm not the superhero, what if I'm the bad guy? 
~~~~~ 
You have to know he effect you have on people.
I dazzle people?
YOu haven't noticed?
Do I dazzle you? 
Frequently...
~~~~~ 
Yes, here I sit... because of you. Because somehow you know how to find me today...?
~~~~~
I didnt like it not seeing you.  It makes me anxious too.
 ~~~~~
It's one thing for me to make myself miserable, but  a wholly one thing for you to be so involved. ... I don't want to hear you feel that way.
~~~~~
About 3 things I was absolutely positive.  First Edward was a vampire.  Second,  there was part of him I didn't know how potent that part might be - that thirsted for my blood.  Third,  I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.
~~~~~
Hadn't you noticed? I'm breaking all the rules now.
~~~~~
You are exactly my brand of heroine.
~~~~~
To me, it was like you were some kind of demon, 
summoned straight from my own personal hell to ruin me.  
~~~~~
The fragrance coming off your skin... 
I thought it would make me deranged that first day. 
~~~~~~
Who were you, 
an insignificant little girl 
to chase me from the place I wanted to be? 
~~~~~ 
I realized slowly that his words should frighten me.  I waited for that fear to come 
but all i could seem to feel
is an ache for his pain. 
~~~~~ 
Edward: 
"I should have let long ago, I should have now, but i don't know if I am." 
Bella: 
"I don't want you to leave" 
Edward: 
"Which is exactly why i should. 
But don't worrly, I am essentially a selfish creature. 
 I crave your company too  much to do what I should"
~~~~~
 You are the most important thing for me now, 
the most important thing ever 
~~~~~
You already know how I feel of course
I'm here, ...which roughly translated, 
means I would rather die than stay away from you,... I'm an idiot! 
~~~~~
And so the lion fell in love with the lamb...
What a stupid lamb
What a sick, masochistic lion
~~~~~
Did I do anything?
No- the opposite.  You are driving me crazy!
~~~~~
I was...susceptible.
 Until I made up my mind that I was srong enough, 
that there was no possiblity at all that i would... that I ever could...
So there's no possiblity now?
Mind of matter   
 ~~~~~
Just because I'm resisting the wine
doesn't mean that I can't appreciate the bouquet
You have a very floral smell, like lavender...or freesia, It's mouthwatering .
~~~~~~ 
...the majority of our kind who are quite content with our lot -
they, too wonder at how we live. 
 But you see, just because we've been ... 
dealt a certain hand ... it doesn't mean taht we cant choose to rise above -
to conquer the boundaries of a destiny that none of us wanted. 
 To try to retain whatever essential humanity we can. 
~~~~~
I miss you.
I know Bellla, Believe me, I know.  
It's like you've taken half my self away with you.
Come and get it then
Soon, as soon as I possibly can. I will make you safe..
~~~~~
You have saved me
I can't always be Lois Lane, I want to be Superman too.
~~~~~
You are my life.  You're the only thing it would hurt me to lose.
~~~~~~
To be perectly honest, she'll be unavailable every night,
as far as anyone besides myself is conscerned. 
~~~~~ 
I'm hardly a lottery prize.
That's right. You are much better.
~~~~~
 Twilight, again
Another ending.  
 No matter how perfect the day is, it always has to end.
~~~~~ 
...I don't want you to miss anything. 
 I don't want my presence to take anything away from you, if i can help it.
I want you to be human. 
 I want your life to continue
as it would have if I'd died in nineteen-eighteen like I should have.  
~~~~~ 
A girl can dream.
Is that what you dream about? Beng a monster?
Not exactly, Mostly I dream about being with you forever. 
 
 
blackbutterfly


 My primary motivation behind buying a car, despite the scarcity of my funds, was that I refused to be driven around town in a car with red and blue lights on top. Nothing slows down traffic like a cop.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.5
I do a good job of blocking painful, unnecessary things from my memory.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.6



 My mother is part albino.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.16
I tried to be diplomatic, but mostly I just lied a lot.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.17
I stared because their faces, so different, so similar, were all devastatingly,  
inhumanly beautiful.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.19
That’s Edward. He’s gorgeous, of course, but don’t waste your time. He doesn’t date. Apparently none of the girls here are good-looking enough for him.
Jessica Stanley, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.22
 So, did you stab Edward Cullen with a pencil or what? I’ve never seen him act like that.
Mike Newton, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.25
Forks was literally my personal hell on Earth.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.25
For an instant, I felt a thrill of genuine fear, raising the hair on my arms. The look only lasted a second, but it chilled me more than the freezing wind.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.27
Edward Cullen is staring at you.
 Jessica Stanley, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.42 


The Cullens don’t like anybody… well, they don’t notice anybody enough to like them. 
But he’s still staring at you.
Jessica Stanley, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.42


His fingers were ice-cold, like he’d been holding them in a snowdrift before class. But that wasn’t why I jerked my hand away so quickly. When he touched me,
it stung my hand as if an electric current had passed through us.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.45
Hasn’t anyone ever told you? Life isn’t fair.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.49
I was in disbelief that I’d just explained my dreary life to this bizarre, beautiful boy who may or may not despise me.
Bella Swan
, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.50
If I was being honest with myself, I knew I was eager to get to school because 
I would see Edward Cullen. And that was very, very stupid.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.54 
I was consumed by the mystery Edward presented
And more than a little obsessed by Edward himself.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.67 
That was the first night I dreamed of Edward Cullen.
 Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.67
As always, I was electrically aware of Edward sitting close enough to touch, as distant as if he were merely an invention of my imagination.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.72
I couldn’t allow him to have this level of influence over me. It was pathetic.
More than pathetic, it was unhealthy.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.74
It’s better if we’re not friends. Trust me.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.74
Bella, it’s not my fault if you are exceptionally unobservant.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.81
I thought you were supposed to be pretending I don’t exist, not irritating me to death.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82
It felt like the heat of my anger should physically burn him, but he only seemed more amused.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82


So you are trying to irritate me to death? 
Since Tyler’s van didn’t do the job?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82
Bella, you are utterly absurd.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82


My palms tingled — I wanted so badly to hit something. I was surprised at myself.
I was usually a nonviolent person.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82


Do you have a multiple personality disorder?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82

Are you trying to be funny?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.83

Stupid, shiny Volvo owner.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.83


The wasting of finite resources is everyone’s business.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.83
I said it would be better if we weren’t friends, not that I didn’t want to be.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.84
It would be more… prudent for you not to be my friend. 
But I’m tired of trying to stay away from you, Bella.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.84
You really should stay away from me.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.84

blackbutterfly



After such a loooooong time aching to finally start an always-cancelled-reading time I've finally made it just this week!  I guess after all the delay was needless and unnecessary and perhaps i was just lazy and not busy? LOL! Ummm i've seen Twilight on the movie but then i've always wanted to see how it compares with the experience you getting reading the story and not watching it.  Well, true enough as I've anticipated, Twilight on the book is toooooo much of a multiple times more engaging when you open those pages and not just push a button to watch some scenes flip by for less than 2 hours.
I really thought i'd dedicate 3 hours a day to read it but right now I've planned to set aside full days just to read the complete Twilight saga.
This is the same longing I have with the God Father trilogy. I wish to get hold of those books by Mario Puzo and i'm sure that for  a hundred times more the same story that broke me,tore me and have kept me left still inside those scenes will keep me there for good.
blackbutterfly



I'm head over heels for Taylor! whoahhhhh! I love her face, love her voice, her style, God WHY IS IT THAT WHEN I LOOK AT HER SHE SEEMS JUST SOOOOO PERFECT!

TAYLOR SWIFT - CRAZIER

I've never gone with the wind, just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Til you open the door, there's so much more
I've never seen it before
I was trying to fly but I couldn't find my wings
But you came along and you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier

I watched from a distance as you made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
[ Taylor Swift Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
You opened my eyes and you made me believe.

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier oh

Baby you showed me what livin' is for
I don't wanna hide anymore

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier crazier crazie
blackbutterfly




From Taylor Swift's new album,
Fearless)


Say you're sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
The days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known

[Chorus]
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive,
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
My mistake, I didn't wanna be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know

[Chorus]
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees,
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm sooo sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now
And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late
To catch me now
blackbutterfly



I've watched Slumdog Millionaire out of curiousity and found out why it deserves the 8 Oscars. Another 87 wins & 33 nominations.


The story of  of Jamal Malik (Patel), an 18 year-old orphan Mumbai teen who grew up in the slums, who became a contestant on the Indian version of "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire?" Watch as he stuns Inspector and sixty million viewers at the profoundness springing from series of painful and  unfortunate life and love experiences which all seem too much of a burden for his growing years amazingly change and free his life.


A crazy yucky scene somewhere... hehehe
the boy falls on a  mountain pile of poop ! yikezzzz

I have a weak tummy ...wahhhhhhhh...
blackbutterfly
 Lapland


She once told me that the snow queen lived here
all year round it is sparkling white winter wonderland
at the nothern verge. Lapland.


The palace of the snow queen is in that deepest coldest place
the walls are built of glistening snow
in the palace where the windows are made of chilly brisk winds
the snow quen is sisolated from all the warmthof the world
freezing alone


she is the prettiest in the world but also the loneliest
so she but to take kay away
she once told me
are you...
taken away by the snow queen too?



Greta was looking for kay and came to where the snow queen was living in lapland
i also...i...
my loneliest and prettiest queen in this world
i'm here looking for you.. 
_The Snow Queen 



if you love an miss that person
then, love can come again when you meet again.
just like playing hide an seek...
no matter where it hides or even if you can't see it...
it must be waiting at some place or me.
amid the countless chaos
just like the sinere prayers of love
the people in love will surely meet again.
 

_ Spring Waltz 
 


There was once a girl warm as the sea
who took a boy as lonely as an island into her heart
she was like spring to the boy
whose whole life had been like winter all year long
this piece is for that sparkling girl


_Spring Waltz



if you realy like me, then i have confidence that i can live 100 years
not bec. i am hey'su's sisterbut bec. i'm bok sil

i really really love you  ...
i love you whe n you are really angry

"hey girl you want to die?" i do love when you shout loudly at me like that
i like you when you smile too
kim bok sil bok sil ..whenever you call me lik that, i feel like

i'm going crazy
do you know that

 _Which Star Are You From



don't go
i'm telling you not to go
i...will only bring you pain will only be despicable
will only be a jerk but if that's okay
then don't go
i love you
the I love

the one i love is with bear paws
naive and strong
doesn't listen to anything

bumpkin kimboksil
i love you i don't want you to go
i want you to be by my side

don't go

_Which Star Are You From


even though i raise my hands to hide the heavens
as though nothing an be kept hidden
my loveing heart can't be hidden either

ilove you
afraid of the goodbye
that's behind love
why is life so hard
i'm terrified, i'm never letting you go
i'll never make you regret my love for you
the hidden sky's dark and

even though the road in frontof us may be blocked it's ok
my love's strength will shine for you. dont worry.
because ilove. i love you so much
until my breath stops
i won't forget you even until
i'm at the end of this world


because i dream of you
dream of you so much...

_Which Star Are You From 



i didnt know hye su would die
didn't know that i woud meet bok sil

didn't know i would come after her
an ddidn't know i would run
so i can only do one thing

run
I can only run an run
 
_Which Star Are You From




even if you were never able to remember me again
you're alive in my heart
i ihold on to you in my memories
i'm exhausted from tears
you'll come back to me one day
back into my arms


oh i'll give my love oh when i
hold you tight i love you
i needed to tell you tat least these words
i love you forever

separting once and meeting again twice
ou look at me with tow different pairs of eyes
i loved everything about you so much
i'll love you again , even your pain

_Save The Last Dance


even if i can't recover my memory, ... no, even if i can
recover my memory and return to an unfamiliar reality
 
i will love you forever
and i will stay with you always

i promise his

sarang-hee 
_Save The Last Dance 










 


 


blackbutterfly



Jacky Chan, Chow Yun Fat,Jet Li, Andy Lau ...

I can never resist them!

Jet Li's HERO is at top of my list among all - time movie favorites!  I know that if i have to watch it again, i couldn't help but be awed in tears.

I am not much in to graphically gorrrry, horryfying, bloodiness of war movies but DEFINITELY WARLORDS is one
exemption and one that i'll pick together with Mel Gibson's "BRAVEHEART".

There is something really different with how chinese film does it, cinematography,screenplay,musical scoring and everything!   I watched this movie and it left me seriously attached with it's poignant shade hanging over me and just refusing to pass as mere pictures on the screen.

Based on "The Assassination of Ma," a Qing Dynasty (1644-1911) story about the killing of general Ma Xinyi. The story was filmed by Zhang Che in 1973 as The Blood Brothers.  This ill-fated brotherhood amidst political strife  is a heroic story that will forever leave a distinct dent on your heart.
blackbutterfly
 
This trilogy  is no.1 on my top top all-time faves! :) 
I watched this trilogy not just once or twice but again and again, replaying the most sensitive scenes and
dialogues  which has caught my heart for life. 
This story not only touches me to the core because of it's powerful magic and deep touch of sentimentality, 
but with still with all it's heroism, 
binding friendships, brotherhood, pure sacred and eternal love.
To all the Frodo's in the world who deserve some loyal Samwise Gamgee, couples who i wish would be
all self-giving and sacrificing as Arwen and Aragorn, young and unwise who'd have some spirit guide as Gandalf or Galadriel, weak hearted Gollum's who might need to realize, there's always a choice to
choose the best side within us to conquer the evil.  
JRR Tolkien is a rare genius! 
Galadriel: The world is changed. I feel it in the water. I feel it in the earth. I smell it in the air. Much that once was is lost, for none now live who remember it. It began with the forging of the Great Rings. Three were given to the Elves, immortal, wisest and fairest of all beings. Seven to the Dwarf lords, great miners and craftsmen of the mountain halls. And nine, nine rings were gifted to the race of men, who, above all else, desire power. But they were, all of them, deceived, for another Ring was made. In the land of Mordor, in the fires of Mount Doom, the Dark Lord Sauron forged in secret a master Ring, to control all others. And into this Ring he poured his cruelty, his malice and his will to dominate all life. One Ring to rule them all.


Galadriel: It began with the forging of the Great Rings. Three were given to the Elves; immortal, wisest and fairest of all beings. Seven, to the Dwarf Lords, great miners and craftsmen of the mountain halls. And nine, nine rings were gifted to the race of Men, who above all else desire power. For within these rings was bound the strength and the will to govern over each race. But they were all of them deceived, for a new ring was made. In the land of Mordor, in the fires of Mount Doom, the Dark Lord Sauron forged in secret, a master ring, to control all others. And into this ring he poured all his cruelty, his malice and his will to dominate all life. One ring to rule them all. One by one, the free peoples of Middle Earth fell to the power of the Ring. But there were some who resisted. A last alliance of men and elves marched against the armies of Mordor, and on the very slopes of Mount Doom, they fought for the freedom of Middle-Earth. Victory was near, but the power of the ring could not be undone. It was in this moment, when all hope had faded, that Isildur, son of the king, took up his father's sword. And Sauron, enemy of the free peoples of Middle-Earth, was defeated. The Ring passed to Isildur, who had this one chance to destroy evil forever, but the hearts of men are easily corrupted. And the ring of power has a will of its own. It betrayed Isildur, to his death. And some things that should not have been forgotten were lost. History became legend. Legend became myth. And for two and a half thousand years, the ring passed out of all knowledge. Until, when chance came, the ring ensnared another bearer. The ring came to the creature Gollum, who took it deep into the tunnels under the Misty Mountains, and there it consumed him. The ring gave to Gollum unnatural long life. For five hundred years it poisoned his mind; and in the gloom of Gollum's cave, it waited. Darkness crept back into the forests of the world. Rumor grew of a shadow in the East, whispers of a nameless fear, and the Ring of Power perceived. Its time had now come. It abandoned Gollum. But then something happened that the Ring did not intend. It was picked up by the most unlikely creature imaginable. A hobbit, Bilbo Baggins, of the Shire. For the time will soon come when hobbits will shape the fortunes of all...


Galadriel: It betrayed Isildur to his death. And some things that should not have been forgotten were lost. History became legend, legend became myth, and for two and half thousand years the Ring passed out of all knowledge. Until when chance came, it ensnared a new bearer. The Ring came to the creature Gollum, who took it deep into the tunnels of the Misty Mountains. And there, it consumed him. The Ring brought to Gollum unnatural long life. For five hundred years it poisoned his mind. And in the gloom of Gollum's cave, it waited. Darkness crept back into the forest of the world. Rumor grew of a shadow in the East, whispers of a nameless fear, and the Ring of Power perceived. Its time had now come.


FRODO: You're late.

GANDALF:A wizard is never late, Frodo Baggins. Nor is he early. He arrives precisely when he means to.


Frodo: Wait... there are markings. It's some form of Elvish, I can't read it.
Gandalf: There are few who can. The language is the that of Mordor, which I will not utter here.
Frodo: Mordor?
Gandalf: In the common tongue it reads "One Ring to Rule Them All. One Ring to Find Them. One Ring to Bring Them All and In The Darkness Bind Them."
Galadriel: The one ring to rule them a



 Gandalf: I think you should leave the ring behind, Bilbo. Is that so hard?
Bilbo: Well, no.
[frowning]
Bilbo: ... and yes. Now it comes to it, I don't feel like parting with it. It's mine. I found it. It came to me.
Gandalf: There's no need to get angry.
Bilbo: Well, if I'm angry, it's your fault.
[to himself]
Bilbo: ... it's mine... my own... my precious...
Gandalf: Precious? It's been called that before, but not by you.
Bilbo: Oh, what business is it of yours what I do with my things?
Gandalf: I think you've had that ring quite long enough.
Bilbo: You... you want it for yourself.
Gandalf: BILBO BAGGINS. Do not take me for some conjuror of cheap tricks. I am not trying to rob you, I'm trying to help you.



BILBO:Today is my one hundred and eleventh birthday! Alas. Eleventy one years is far too short a time to live amongst such excellent, and admirable Hobbits. I don't know half of you half as well as I should like, and I like less than half of you half as well as you deserve. I er ... I have things to do. I've put this off for far too long. regret to announce this is the end. I'm going now. I bid you all a very fond farewell. Goodbye.



Galadriel: But they were, all of them, deceived, for another Ring was made. In the land of Mordor, in the fires of Mount Doom, the Dark Lord Sauron forged in secret a master Ring, to control all others. And into this Ring he poured his cruelty, his malice and his will to dominate all life. "One Ring to rule them all." One by one, the Free Lands of Middle Earth fell to the power of the Ring. But there were some who resisted. A Last Alliance of Men and Elves marched against the armies of Mordor and on the slopes of Mount Doom, they fought for the freedom of Middle Earth. Victory was near. But the power of the Ring could not be undone.


Sam: This is it.
Frodo: This is what?
Sam: If I take one more step, it'll be the farthest away from home I've ever been.
Frodo: Come on, Sam. Remember what Bilbo used to say: "It's a dangerous business, Frodo, going out your door. You step onto the road, and if you don't keep your feet, there's no knowing where you might be swept off to."


Frodo: I wish the ring had never come to me. I wish none of this had happened.
Gandalf: So do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us. There are other forces at work in this world Frodo, besides the will of evil. Bilbo was meant to find the Ring. In which case, you were also meant to have it. And that is an encouraging thought.


 [Frodo hears the ring whispering ominously while the Council argues]
Frodo: I will take it!
[they don't hear him; he raises his voice]
Frodo: I will take it!
[they fall silent, looking at him]
Frodo: I will take the Ring to Mordor! 
[pause]
Frodo: Though... I do not know the way.


Aragorn: If by my life or death I can protect you, I will. You have my sword...
Legolas: ...and you have my bow...
Gimli: ...and my axe.
Boromir: You carry the fate of us all, little one. If this is indeed the will of the Council, then Gondor will see it done.
Elrond: Nine companions. So be it. You shall be the fellowship of the ring.
Pippin: Great! Where are we going?


 Aragorn: I do not know what strength is in my blood, but I swear to you I will not let the White City fall, nor our people fail.
Boromir: Our people, our people. I would have would have followed you, my brother... my captain... my king.
Aragorn: Be at peace, Son of Gondor



Gandalf: There is only one Lord of the Ring, only one who can bend it to his will. And he does not share power.

Saruman: Against the power of Mordor there can be no victory.
 


 Arwen: Why do you fear the past? You are Isildur's heir, not Isildur himself. You are not bound to his fate.
Aragorn: The same blood flows in my veins. The same weakness.
Your time will come. You will face the same evil, and you will defeat it. 
Arwen: Do you remember when we first met?
Aragorn: I thought I had wandered into a dream. 
Arwen: Long years have passed. You did not have the cares you carry now. Do you remember what I told you?
Aragorn: You said you'd bind yourself to me, forsaking the immortal life of your people. 
Arwen: And to that I hold. I would rather share one lifetime with you than face all the ages of this world alone.
[hands him her pendant]
Arwen: I choose a mortal life. 
Aragorn: You cannot give me this.
Arwen: It is mine to give to whom I will. Like my heart.
 


Galadriel: I know what it is you saw, for it is also in my mind.
[telepathically]
Galadriel: It is what will come to pass, If you should fail. The Fellowship is breaking, it has already begun. He will try to take the Ring, you know of whom I speak. One by one, it will destroy them.
Frodo: [telepathically] If you ask it of me, I will give you the One Ring.
Galadriel: You offer it to me freely? I do not deny that my heart has greatly desired this.
[starts to grow dark]
Galadriel: In the place of a Dark Lord you would have a Queen! Not dark but beautiful and terrible as the Morn! Treacherous as the Seas! Stronger than the foundations of the Earth! All shall love me and despair!
[she stops]
Galadriel: I have passed the test. I will diminish, and go into the West, and remain Galadriel.
Frodo: I cannot do this alone.
Galadriel: You are a Ring-bearer, Frodo. To bear a Ring of Power is to be alone.
[pulls out her hand]
Galadriel: This is Nenya, the Ring of Adament. And I am it's keeper. This task was appointed to you, and if you do not find a way, no one will.
Frodo: I know what I must do, it's just that... I'm afraid to do it.
Galadriel: Even the smallest person can change the course of the future


Galadriel: I give you the light of EƤrendil, our most beloved star. May it be a light for you in dark places, when all other lights go out.



Frodo: Go back, Sam. I'm going to Mordor alone.
Sam: Of course you are. And I'm coming with you.

 Sam: I made a promise, Mr Frodo. A promise. Don't you leave him Samwise Gamgee. And I don't mean to. I don't mean to.